After losing Natalie, my writing became on a hold. I’ve been trying to write again. It’s now I realise that even if I stop doing things, the world doesn’t stop. It felt like my world hand ended, but everyone else was still living. Part of me hated that, and part of me is thankful of that too.
In about a week, it will be two years since Natalie, my sister took her life. My life did stop, or I tried to make it stop, and I’m still trying to build up back up. After being detained last July, I’m still detained on an out of area PD unit, receiving DBT and psychology.
It’s a hard place to be in right now. It’s hard being detained, being away from family, having natts anniversary in the horizon and now, the situation were all stuck in with COVID19 which had already taken so many lives and the country is now on lockdown
I guess there wasn’t a point to this blog, but to explain on the situation and be a start of me blogging again which I look forward too.
For now, stay safe. Social distance and self isolate. Only go out if needed, but also look after your mental health. This too shall pass – it won’t last forever.
livingwithbpd 
You are an amazing strong lady who has so much to give you’ve been through so many difficult challenges but you are a strong person your kind and beautiful remember your not alone i am so proud to say your my daughter and you can do this babysteps together natalie will be watching you and she will be proud of you like i am remember so manly peaple love you and care about you and your babies need you I’m proud of you love you dearly love mumma bear
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